Unemployment and Psychological Degeneration

The life ahead is going to rather harder for those craving for employment.It is likely to be never like what we witness today.Most apparently,unemployment will hit us so hard .The hell we go through today is just minute.It's evident that we will have to be the victim of this growing brunt. Environment we aspire to see in the job market will remain just as wish.We will see our dream just perpetuating as we pass by.Let's now be psychologically strong and extraordinarily vigilant.

Never be tired of dreaming.Situation is too heartless to pity your tiredness.The very aspiration of being welcomed by job someday will have to be held on.Our target is far beyond and will have to keep hoping.Things are going to be further complicated.We will see huge chunk of our cluster exponentially growing.The toll will rise year by year.No doubt competiton will turn hugely intense.Will we be able to keep our dreams alive? I, for one really wonder.It needs immediate attention.We must care this as much as we hope for so-called employment

I know it's easier said than done.When wish remains just as wish and find no hope,we find no faith and confidence in ourselves.We then turn blind to real essence of life.Grappling the life proceedings in such situation is quite challenging.Inspite of being not able to prove with all we have, what if we get worsened? Better we cramp those pressures with trust and self-confidence.And it's high time that we wake up and redefine our understanding about employment.Let's not conclude it as the worst humanitarian problem.We now have to look for livelihood than employment.

The life before was hard.We bore huge struggle.Starting kindergarten till graduation, we experienced more world of hardship than comfort.It's never pinnacle of learning though.We always wished  to become someone doing something worth in life.Accordingly, we have set goals and zealously worked hard. We have now entered the world we always dreamt for.However,we are yet to achieve those goals.Things we experience today is in complete opposition to what we dreamt.What do you think is the drawback here? Who should be held respobsible?

Being not able to find job of choice,we hardly gather guts to dream beyond. We see everything beyond our reach.We see life which is  too harsh to be pictured before our innocent eyes.Very often, we find ourselves ill-prepared for such world.Consequently, we tend to create mountain out of hill and find no ray of light in  living.In actuality, we are degrading ourselves.We  fail to see ourselves disdaining the beauty of existence.There is need of a change within ourselves.It's embarrassing to see huge chunk of us amalgamating our dream for job and  identity of being educated.Remember we are educated not just for the sake of employment.

Our society is as tiny as it ought to be.It is yet to attain the stage where unemployment can be seen as issue. For now unemployment doesn't qualify to be a problem.Taking our size, population,economic growth,and societal transformations into consideration,I personally feel it's kinda blind to construe unemployment as huge problem.It's not the problem that troubles us in life.But our attitude and thinking towards it.It depends upon the way we take it and handle.Change is not too far to be attained.We can address and bring improvement .Whenever we are not able to tackle the problem, we must  think that we are capable of bringing change.

Society like ours needs to be lifted than to be pressurized for personal gain.National issues should be taken and dealt positively.It can't be solved in one go.It requires each and everyone's involvement and contribution.We must partake. We have roles to play for we are part of society.The time has come when we should be both pragmatic and assertive in our approach.Citizens of any age, status,knowledge, position and capacity must unite and cooperate in understanding the societal concerns.And we must contribute in our own little ways.In togetherness, we can address any kind of issue not just unemployment.Who are we waiting for to solve our societal problem?

Unemployment, I find is more of policy-oriented issue.Who is responsible for the shortcoming?We must now regret for we have left things upto the government.Owing to our relaxation in past, we are today punished with huge brunt.Everyone thought government would lead us right.We have been so complacent.We paid no heed to their doings and proceedings.Who are to be blamed for today's crisis? We must blame ourselves for being carefree in the past.Believe me, we have abundant resources and sectors to absorb double the job seekers than we have today.We experience hell of it just because we lack proper planning and policy.Things are not in place and play.We need reform in system.We are too early to face unemployment.

Majority of youth today give  much stress in the name of employment.They feel doomed and dejected.They are governed more by hopelessness than hope and motivation.Scarcity of jobs,tough competition in job market,modern challenges and hard livelihood have always shattered their interest,dream and motivation.Sadly,many of them become pychologically and intellectually weak day by day.Finding no lacuna to expose and utilise their knowledge,potentiality and strength,they loose self-confidence and repect for what they are capable of.It's is truly the psychological degeneration taking root among our youths.We can't let it happen and grow bigger.

Going by the simple research which I  have conducted using secondary data and findings,it is observed that vast majority of our youth today  pursue education with prime goal of achieving employment.I wish we have better education system to groom our young schoolers in better way and engrossed world.We want to see more reforms in the current system.We shan't let them strict just to the dream of career.Youths are custodian and transformer of society.They must be made adversely equipped with values,wisdom,calibre and sense of motivation to contribute towards social change. Similarly, they must be  made socially and psychologically adaptable in any ways.Most importantly,they must be attitudinally positive and forthcoming. For those young school goers and collegians, my message would be to school for bigger pictures of society rather than dreaming just for employment.

Treasuring the lesson from base to zenith

Walking the educational journey for sixteen years,today I walk back just as I journeyed forward long time back.Feeling the need of gaping what I learned and unlearned,the zest and zeal I held forward so far is now to be replicated.I  journey back for I am not tired.I can never be tired walking back either.It's really a worthwhile go back.I now see those unseen,hold those unheld,pass through those bypassed.This move keeps me learning those unlearned and unlearning those worthless.

When I was a young boy of seven, I was compelled to start schooling.I found it nothing more than harsh punishment.Everything during those days was tough and challenging.However, I could manage to handle those difficulties and keep moving forward.I weeped, I struggled,I fought,I challenged,I laughed and I enjoyed.In the name of education, I experienced many instances of life before people from different walks of life.

Everything I have gone through is cystal clear.I vividly remember those days when my mammy used to walk me to school.Very often, she used to cane me upon expressing reluctance to study.My daddy kept me pampered though.School for me those days was no-go place for I had no zeal to be a learner.I had no dream excelling in education and becoming someboby proud in future.I always felt wise enough to be disfranchised from formal education.Whole alcoves of learning those days was in dissonance with my sense and choice of learning.

Holding extreme confidence of having a life for I am born to live,I paid no heed.I found learning baseless and rather worthless.I disdained the motivation and inspiration pouring me from teachers,parents and elder friends.Owing to my unwavering disinterest,inability,reluctance and so on,everyone around me bore huge worry about me those days.

My mammy's only wish was to see me excelling in education and contributing towards societal transformation.However,fulfillment of her wish those days was next to impossible.I am pretty sure she never dreamt of I reaching this height.But things happened unexpectedly.Everything she witnesses today is a miracle.In each and every step I take ahead, I prove her earlier judgement wrong.I never let her down like in those young days of education.I will inspire her more for I have hugely  disheartened her in my youth.

I am groomed and educated in a very different fashion unlike rest of my generations.Environment was same albeit.Wisdom of great teachers, advice of loving parents,inspiration from fellow zealots,motivation from success achievers,so and so forth couldn't push me forward to be what I am today.I have never let myself fall prey to their dogma.I knew things workable for them will never work in my world.It was pretty hard adjusting the choice.I couldn't imagine of creating a world they want from me.Going by their directions and leaving upto my dream was quite exhausting.

Nothing in life is challenging.We are always blessed with will to create magic.We can  inspire and teach others a lesson with our magic .Attainment of goals is never far beyond our reach.I find it's all about taking a right approach and managing to reach that goal.We should neither be inspired nor influenced if we are to achieve something in life.Things should be grappled individually so that you are free to bear risk, free to change, free to strive , free to attain and free to celebrate your bonaza.Self-confidence  is what we must have and hold onto.Your journey is likely to be be waylayed if you strive and persevere under somebody's pressure and direction.We should never route through such journey in life for it is not worth.

The greatest truimph in life is never excellence,reputation,achievement and so on.It is defining yourself to the world as truly as you are when others conclude you wrongly.Nothing is wonderful than the moment when people take second thoughts about you and feel that they have misconstrued who you are.People praise and insult you for many reasons.The reason is not simply because you are superior or inferior.Take social criticism and stigmatization as blessing.These will let you down for a while but leads to unprecedented changes in life.When you are looked down,criticized and demotivated in life, may be you are much ahead of others or lacked much behind.You should focus on why they say rather than what they say so.Respecfully, take refuge in them for they remind you of greater height.

Vast majority would never believe seeing me at the zenith of education.My world for them is to be seen different than what it appears today.In my childhood days of schooling, I was first to be ranked from below, first to be chased away from the class, first to be scolded in family,first to be sidelined as pathetic and first to be punished for indiscipline and barbaric acts.My teachers and parents criticized,scolded and also canned me just because they wanted me to be a better human.They had no harsh feeling for me.Similarly,my peer groups used to criticize and look me down simpy because I couldn't stand upto their height.I lacked much behind those days .All of them advised,inspired and motivated me as  well.Thank god! I didn't pay heed to their advise and inspiration.If I had fallen prey those days, I would be ruined today just as they felt I will be in future.

The inspiration,advise and motivation I got didn't push me forward.My transition is not attributed to those beautiful rays.I am today at zenith of education genuinely because of their scolding,criticism,bash,slap and other harsh treatments.I was inspired by  harshness than their kindness and care. Heeding their insult and stigmatization, I could change myself and become a true man of diligence.I persevered and could reach this height all because of them.I owe in deep my immense gratitude and respect for lighting me with change.Wonderfully,I could excell for myself and also outshine them heroically.

My achievement from sixteen years of education is not the degree I achieve,not the course I read, not the knowledge I gained, not the books I referred,not the great teachers I could learn from, not the wonderful friends I have met,not the medals I have won,not the certificates I recieved,not the foreign soil I experienced,not the full bright scholarship I gained and not the respect I earned.But it is the lesson that we can change ourselves and outshine in life if we wisely persevere in face of criticism,hardship,social stigma and disdainment.

Uncovering Novelty in Bygone Phase

I recall seemingly longing for this day

Eureka! truly the day is today.

It has appeared just as wished

I feel undoubtedly blessed.

Sheesh! those days were willy and silly 

I was then blunder, truly and wholly.

Gone are now all those phases

I am now  left just with flashes.

Gosh! not gone are those beyond reminiscence

I always  feel their vivid presence.

Crystal clear still is my bygone

Lively, I feel like never actually gone .

It's a fun going back those days

It's nothing more than the feel of these days.

Throwbacks are awesomely racy

Albeit those days are now unlikely.

I have gone too far from those delights

Never had I been glued to their sights.

Now I attend gone string of allures

But now those appeals are just drosses.

Over-walked is journey, I see

I walk back to re-start never to flee.

Those will now be held tight

No more adieu to bygone delight.

Jiffy and jiggle, I want my journey to be.

Most apparently by your side,I would be.

My return, I bet will be speedy

No doubt you will see me glossy.

I take pride holding back the past

For those are geniunely our part.

I am madly surprised doing so.

It's  magical so much and so.

Jeepers! never  gone yet is my no more glee

Miles to go still for it to be gone.

Fresh and new,I find and will be always

Charm of novelty is what it breeds.

Whether I have gone through those phases,I wonder

How did I grow and reach this height, I ponder.

I remember those phases, I didn't bypass

Neither in those phases ,I could surpass.

Anything I rememeber I had, find new

These are rather vivid and easy to view.

I cherish the comeback of my gone by

Hereafter,strength to strength I will  hold by.

Now I am yet to do those done

And to enjoy the past to be treated gone.

Nothing I had once upon a time is memory

Everything I find in past is new glory.

Walking Beyond Journey

Never did he dream he would strict to what he once dreamt.Neither did he think it would work in a real world.In actuality, it failed for him.But he always saw it working one good day.It first came into thought some 15 years ago.Today he puts into play.

This isn't a prank to ridicule you .It is something we have ever gone through.Hey,wake up, coming into sight those odds is never always a prank.I can't fool you with prank either.Here is the true story of untrue graduate looking for employment in disguise. Surprisingly, what he looks for was not necessarily a job. Have you ever heard of job seeker looking not for employment? It's surprising, isn't it? Wonder not, it will  surprise you more.It was worth listening this story. I scribble here deeming it's worth reading.

Just bidded adieu to young teenage world barely couple of years ago.He goes by the name of Rigden( pet name). He hails from one shanty valley in the east.Unlike many of us in those days, he never had hard education life.He has rare failure story.He always had a great pleasure excelling on educational front.He inspired everyone affiliated to him.They lifted him with appreciation and endorsement.No doubt he was god gifted son for his great parents.

Never usual was he one day.Shattered and gone he felt.He was then in the midst of session.He found the need of bringing twist in his approach of life.He regretted realizing late." You have routed through wrong track,it's never the worthwhile proceedings of life" rang his ears very often.What was his setback? Everything was ever higher and onward though.He was then a young little boy of eleven.That was when he realized employment shan't be the priority.Wow! he was truly a young matured boy.

You know,we are never alike in any ways.So brainy and bright he used to be since childhood.Everyone expected from him so huge in life.However, what he aspired for was something beyond their notice." Rigden,would your parents be mad if I adopt you, I don't mind bearing consequences if I get some ways to kidnap you and make you stay by my side" Truly a dedicated teacher even today used to pamper him with this phrase holding him tight.

Don't you feel like being him and having one as him if possible? Why not you at least dream?  If you are yet be wedded with ravishing gorgeous lady or dashingly giant man, you never too late to pray for such gifted child.For those of you already married ,don't resort to happy family concept.You may not have young matured as him.Those devoid of  having child,change your mindset.Some siblings are truly a gem.How confident  am I to use such slang! I am awfully sorry. It isn't my disrespect for you.I can't afford to ridicule you.It's simply because you read for me.Now,let me resume and let you know what happened.

Rigden completed twelveth grade with impressive marks.It made him qualify to study abroad.Oh! what a blunder! I couldn't believe  hearing so.He simply withdrew the course awarded and decided doing graduation in Bhutan.Winning scholarship after 12th grade is actually a pinnacle of dream for thousands of zealots.However,his justification was big.He proved everyone who deemed his deny as blunder wrong.

"Our country is small though.But what is not there we need.However,there are those who would say our economy growth is sluggish often going in shamble.Okay,it is fine. For now I will go by you. Yes,we are hit by many issues like unemployment,poor GDP, low per-capita income,undue debt,so on and so forth.You find it waylaying pace of national development.Come on guys,these aren't problem.Change your attitude towards it.Don't conclude,rather look for approach to address those.If you don't agree, name any country in the world free of those setbacks" he yanked proudly.Wow! he is truly a man of chauvanism.I kowtow you brother.

However,this utterance didn't explain why he decided to study within denying bright scholarship.He explains now " Spend some time pondering on why Bhutanese go to study abroad.Anyway,leave it, I know you will never know.You have misconception.I must say we need education not just qualification.

You know,many leave for third countries simply because they earn.They hardly learn albiet quality of education is fair enough to say good.It's quite strange  that some even buy qualification. Now,let's discuss why our friends prefer neighboring countries.I will narrate you one incident.He is from economically rich background, he studies beautiful course at renown university somewhere.I don't want to name the country.It is needless to mention either. 

"Hey,buddy if you don't mind me asking you, why did you get here to study? I feel like there is no good colleges in Bhutan for higher education or else may be something wrong with education system.What do you say?" asked his companion.

"Haha,come on buddy, its nothing like that.We have many good colleges it is not well equipped though.We chose  here just because it is cheap.You know, it is so expensive studying in our country" responded Rigden.

Half jokingly and more seriously he uttered "You can send your son to educate in Bhutan later on ,you may have to pay what is two year's fees here for one year. We learn nothing standard here.Still we adjust deeming  degree is nothing.If you don't believe, you may see in future.For sure you will not see me doing master and doctorate in your country.His pal then turned speechless and indeed was flobbed.

Let's have patience.Rigden is so bluffy right. Now, let's sue him.He is yet to explain why he denied scholarship from government.Calm down guys,now he speaks." To share you in detail,I had good science marks.But I opted for commerce.If I had opted for science I would be placed in disgraced high school.For commerce stream was not offered there, I wanted to leave for reputed school.To my fortune, I got it just as wished. I never wanted to embarrass myself studying science and pass out with qualification.I always looked for education".

"Now comes the scholarship story, I was offered scholarship to study Bachelors of International Relation.I never wanted to waste government expenditure simply taking offer.Owing to development activities,our country's external debt is escalating.Government doesn't have excessive budget.You know,our government lack proper planning in providing scholarship schemes. It is hardly done in accordance with requirements" said he.

"There is huge gap between Royal Civil Service Commission and Ministry of Education.Once graduated,those full bright scholarship students with general courses have no future. Be it anything, they are treated same like in-country graduates.RCSE provides no slots for those graduates.RCSE knows only those technical graduates.Is this the way how government should handle human resource development?. Is our country so advanced that we have excess experts in those general fields? If so,why not government send students abroad for only technical courses?"uttered he with dissatisfaction.

"Wake up RCSE, assuring professionalism is one among many mandates of yours.Country needs those brains. Wake up government, don't waste millions of money for unnecessary scholarship programs every year.We can use this budget for fruitful developmental activities.We have good colleges in Bhutan for general courses.Don't send abroad and waste money if it is not required." He was that concerned of nation.He deserves applause.

By the time he said so, we friends thought" Yes acho, you are truly right" What if such person join politics? Most apparently, we will see the change that we expect from government of the day.Democracy came as gift from our great monarch.But the players and movers are always with inability and rather with selfish motive.This is because they can't assure what will be after five years of their tenure. We are almost seven years into democratized society.What we experience is nothing more than seven years ago.Politicians often build castle for their glory after five years.They hardly work on national issues and development.Some do just for sake and develop vote bank. Ah! forget it, I may be wrong. I am just a young boy.Who will be submissive? Neither I expect.Let's complete Rigden's journey.

He graduated from Sherubtse college in 2013.He majored  Bachelors in Political Science.He had just average degree marks. However, it wasn't his inability.Chanting the content of books, browsing for vague content on web,pressuring himself and entering job market with good percentage to fool those unrealistic employees were never his dream.

I joined college in the year he graduated.Now, even I am about to graduate.Rigden has still no proper job.Vast majority of Thimphu residents are  fade-up seeing him roaming across street.However. there are some sections of people actually happy with his problem.Very often, he visits Drayangs and contributes huge. He visits bars for the sip and bar owners are happy.He takes meals mostly at hostels and hence,restaurateurs are happy.He is actually contributor and life sustainer in some ways.Anybody wishing to be the kind of job seeker as him? I know you don't want to.You can't either.I will let you will know .

It's more than three years he has been a part of Thimphu City. Those cabbies and bus operators still don't know whether Rigden is there in Thimphu.What mode of transport does he use? It's too strange.Who drives him home? Who drops him to attend  interview for the job? Don't be surprised guys,Rigden proudly drives sonata car in rocky look.Now, next is the doubt how is it possible for job seeker to have so?. This is not the height of who he is.He is the only sibling of one of the tycoons in eastern Bhutan.You got him well now. But don't misunderstand. He relies not on parent's wealth." No matter how tall or short is my grandpa, I have to grow my own height" says he vigilantly.

Being almost for three years into job market and indeed the resident of Thimphu City.He shares different experiences.He says only problem Bhutan is faced with is corruption.He iterates all other issues are brought into groom due to corruption.If this is addressed and everything we lack today is assured.He has bitter and humiliating experience in job market.He says who he hates the most is the "Boss".Therefore, he presumes himself the boss.

The story was too hard to listen.He says " Bosses are breeder of corruption in peaceful nation. I really got disheartened. Luckily, it was good that I was not looking forward to work under them.What If I was genuine guy looking for job? Vacancy announcements are advertised just for sake.It is to expose that things are fair and transparent.Pre-selection is rare exception in job market.One fine day I attended interview.I vividly remember whole scene.The boss and few of hierarchies were interviewer. On entering the door, they were busy with tea and snacks. Seeing so I doubted  good treatment for the guy who went before me.

"I was asked nothing worthwhile .The boss barracked at me." I think you joined school late.You are oldest interviewee I  meet" told he.I just smiled.Meanwhile, one of them left to attend call.After that came the office maid to collect their mess.In respectful tone, I requested him that I was still waiting for questions.After undue delay,they  asked me some questions that I can't even think of.Interview ended in nothingness.After couple of weeks I visited that office.The guy occupying the post I interviewed for was the one who never attended interview.Alas! it's too hard to forget." narrated he emotionally.What government sees is different picture.Perhaps such may be happening under their direction.Nobody knows hard reality but those deprived job seekers.

Rigden was never the one job market beheld.He wants to be job seeker for some more years. Nepotism, favoritism,cronyism and bribery in the system was what he found rampant.He feels small nation like ours can't afford to accommodate those flaws and shortcomings." I am the son of tycoon.But I don't want to expose reality during interview. Why not I let right and able candidate occupy seat? I won't let my daddy call boss either." holds he these lines.

We got him well now. However, the reservation grows over his unique move.He does so mainly for his life-long dream to be fulfilled one day.It is now crystal clear what Rigden thought when he was young boy of eleven.He dreamt the need and urgency of combating corruption.After five years of now or ten years of now, we will for sure see him working in Anti-Corrupiton Commission.I salute and wish him all the luck.This is what really about resorting to pragmatic and assertive approach for change.

Comparison,Competition and Comtemplation

The wonder in life is never our own.It indeed,is being shared by all.There is none shunning mysteries in life.Everybody endeavours for same,attainment is unlikely though.What a vague lead! I know I bored you.Yoo-hoo! come on, it was intentional but never to punish you with boredom.I wanted you keep reading.I know passionate readers hunt for core than clue.Presenting you fancy and racy lead,who will I hire to read further?

We have goals in life. Having so ,we turn desirous more than often.Desire makes us persevere irrespective of hardship and impossibility.Never misconstrue hope and desire.We strive not with hope but out of desire.Trust me,what drags us into abyss of desire is never the story of first emergence.It disqualifies to be first feel.Neither will it be.Consequently, life for huge chunk of us is pictured as race.

Racing in life is babyish act and unrealistic move.I know it will bombard you.Believe me not, but give a try, you will respect this dogma.What is the basis of life? Should we or should we not define our existence?Very often,vast majority of us tend to disillusion the preciousness of life.Does it mean life carries no beauty? Life is as beautiful as it means to be.It needs no glitter.

It's never the question of what life is but how we comprehend and value it.We often get inspired by other's success story.The very inspiration becomes motivation." They could achieve, why not I strive and celebrate bonanza?" we feel so.In actuality we get poisoned not inspired. Did they succeed zealously? Are they blessed with success they designed and longed for? If we ask so, we seldom get answer" Yes".

Never compare yourself with that of those achievers.Neither with those failures.We are never same.We cannot be alike either.In fact, journey of life itself is different.Design not your life.Be prepared to take it with no deny.You know,comparison shatters happiness,charm and values of life.Mysticism of our life shan't be amalgamated with other's pride,glow,flaw, calibre,so on and so forth.On seeing those inferiors,we boast of ourselves. It is very funny.

We crane our head high, take pride and enjoy complacency.We feel we are great,we are not though.The drama turns opposite on seeing those great ones, we feel low,dejected and doomed.Where is the charm and pride you had before? Do you know its whereabout ?We go through different scenes of life albeit we are still same.You neither won nor lost.But you feel the vast change.Never compare and contrast in life,be happy with what you are.Live a life you are blessed with.

Leading a life we desire is never an easy ride and it is often beyond our reach.Life shan't be necessarily perfect,rather should be happy.And it must emerge from within.Nobody can make you happy.You can't make them either.Go for genuine happiness to acquired one.The true basis of life is not to be perfect but to be real.Be who you are and do what you can.

Here comes the recapitulation, life is never a race to gallop and compete."All in you is all you are, all in them is all they are, all in all is all we are" there is no basis to compete.You may outshine others once or twice.But the day is awaiting you when things will be a slap on your face.The time will come when you will learn you proclaimed yourself wrongly.Competition always breeds egoism,hatred,ill-treatment,discomfort,desire and so on amongst ourselves. Carrying and grooming those things,we become inhuman.

We must live a life not just exist.We compete solely because we want to be better and most importantly,the best.Achieving it,will make you further egoistic,prideful and desirous.Failing to attain so will hit you hard with hopelessness,dejection and disillusionment.Outdoing others in life is never to be taken as greatness. That's just your conclusion.You are never great.You lack what he has.Owing to his ignorance of what you have, you are advantageous to outdo him.Race has never come to end rather its beginning.He may prove your inability and weakness at anytime.

Our inability to achieve goals and reach destiny leads us off-track in life.Don't dream too much,try to limit.Yes,we should have aspiration in life.It keeps us going and growing through life.But it is never wise to feel and be determined that we have to attain it.

Life is a jigsaw.Things hardly go in the way we think.It is good to take anything that comes our way.I am pretty much sure you agreed.I know you are struck.It happens.Just forget those bygone memories.I am apologetic if your flashbacks regret you.Just to narrate my story, I always wanted to become an Engineer since kindergarten.

I hypothesized my future world inspecting construction sites, owning luxury car,and having wealthy life.But the irony was I had never been good in mathematics those days.I held tight and kept dream alive.However,after eighth grade,I had to bid farewell to my lifelong dream.I found impossibility over-weighing possibility, I had to change then.After that I shunned mathematics completely.So funnily, I was only the ninth grader determined to opt for humanity after 10th grade.

I vividly remember when my friends used to tease me" Haha, it is too early man, what if you don't qualify?" Their words carried sense.But they failed to applaud me for managing my weakness and preparing for better tomorrow.By then, I no more wanted be an Engineer.And I wanted to become a Lawyer and later, rise to eminent post of Jurist in supreme court.I never worked hard as I should have.

I was then influenced by Martin's ideology" Even if you are not able to fly, at least walk.Even if you are not able to walk, at least crawl.And whatever you do, keep moving forward in life". Now, I am on the verge of graduation. You may ask me" Did you fulfill your dream of becoming Lawyer?"

I am embarrassed to say that I cursed myself for the failure. I landed up majoring Bachelors of Journalism and Mass Communication. When my parents and friends praise me for gaining full-bright scholarship,I say" Thank You"bearing immense brunt of regret.

Alas! it still hurts me.I failed to use magic to reach that goal.Had I not aspired for this dream, I would happily enjoy today with no rashes of regret.Now,I have no concrete dream for the days to come.Anything that comes my way will be taken zealously." Hey..dopey, wake up,you need to set goals" I mumble sometime.But I find it baseless as always.

Never be so much and so attached to your dreams of life.You can simply have it but make sure you are detached from it.Oh! you did it.That's stunning and I salute you.I see you smartly striving for success.That's the spirit.I am proud of you.You got what life is all about.

Life is more than difficult to comprehend.We must not only visualize but also analyze.What we see and feel is never the height of realism.We are exceptionally fortunate to have gotten chance to experience this world.We enjoy,we suffer, we mourn and go through many faces.Nothing qualifies to be permanent. Everything is subjected to change and extinction.Try to erase your tumbling sense of ownership.It's yours only today.

Whatever we see for now, it is safe to say that we have seen. We are no more guaranteed to enjoy it again. Tomorrow is so tragic. You may experience new world anytime. It is wiser to be prepared all the time.Nothing we have is to be trusted and treasured.Don't be cruel and lusty, let it go.It's nothing more than a circle of existence.

Believe me,our grandpa wasn't heartless, he wanted and always wished to see us.Where has he gone? call him so loud.You see if he is responding you.Should he responds,I would stay numb.

Life is nothing more than a drama, we laugh, we cry, we smile.Nothing remains consistent.Therefore, contemplation is the best way to get rid of worldly desire and suffering.Nothing we desire is indispensable.We are directed to love and respect the reality.Let's not deny it.We suffer not because we are meant to.May be something to be done with kind of happiness we are looking for and the way we strive.Happiness is not achievable but just attainable.Never suffer striving for happiness.Rather shun your ego,desire,lust and attachment. These aren't innate nature.

Contemplate in each and every step you take ahead in life, you will find no essence.Contemplation illuminates us with noble values of emptiness.Emptiness is guarantor of happiness,joy and comfort in life.It is no overstatement to say that it helped you.Thank you for getting out of the bondage of lust and attachment.Gotta take rest, I am tired of contemplating.Let's continue next time.